To the most precious person and my source of energy,
I know this small letter to you would never be enough to describe what you mean to me. I know I am very bad when it comes to praising you or talking good things about you. Yet, every time, I try to make you remember, once in a while, how important you are to me and how much lucky I am to have you by my side. It has been two years. 2nd October 2016, was the date when we started our journey. A journey, where we didn’t knew where it would take us, or what it would mean to both of us… I will not rant about the journey because we both know about it… And we both now, what we were back then and what we are today… We have so much changed… But this change is a good change, isn’t it? It was hell a roller-coaster ride… haha. We both inspired each other to become a better person. But one thing has never changed… Our fights. We fight with same frequency today as it was back then. But now life has different meanings for both of us. Earlier, we had just made our small world, just the two of us. But now, our world has become so much bigger with new people, new experiences….Privacy creeped in into our conversations. Earlier we used to talk and talk…hours passing by…time meant nothing for us. But then we realized: It’s not about how much we talk, it’s about the person with whom we talk. It was always about you and me, it was always about US.
Time passed by so fast. We went through a lot, like really a LOT…You know all about that. Fighting, separating then again patching up. This cycle went on endlessly. From loud laughter to wet nights, “US” was trying to keep up with all of this. But, soon, it was just you and me. We lost “US”. But then we shifted our goal to keeping you and me, as much strong as we can. We fell again and again, but we stood up every time. Cause it was you and me. I don’t know why I am falling short in words. Because, you know na I am good with words. You were the first reader of all my posts on my blog. You motivated me to pursue my passion of writing. But now, I don’t feel writing much. You know, it doesn’t come from inside.
I don’t need to list out how much you have sacrificed for me, how much you had to suffer because of me. The list is never ending. I even don’t know how you get the strength to stand beside me after all of this. I salute you. I know I am a selfish person. And I always put myself ahead of us. I blackmail you emotionally and always blame you for all the bad things and take credit for all the good ones. I know. I left you so many times. I blocked you so many times. But I came back to you all the time. It was not because I was alone but I could not imagine my life without you in it. Yes, I don’t talk about you with my friends which you do. I bet your eyes must be shining always when you tell them about me. You were always proud to have me and you never failed to let the world know about it. On the other side, I always hesitated to talk about you. It’s my nature. But trust me, the day I achieve something big, you would be the first person I would talk about. I also want to tell the world about you, my KOHINOOR and I will.
I know you keep telling me that we are just friends. And that you don’t love me. You know, what you are for me? FAMILY. And I love my family more than anything. Yes, we won’t be sharing the same surname…so what? You have played all the roles…as my mother who tells me to eat properly, as my father who corrects me when I am wrong, as my brother who supports me to follow my passion, as my sister who gives me an emotional support every time I need it… You are everything for me. You are my FAMILY.. One day, I will make you proud and give you all those things you deserved..one day, we will again relive our happy moments from the past..one day, you and me will again become “US” And believe me that day isn’t far… Just stay with me…I want to see your eyes shine…